Sometimes I'd just like to dissapear. You know... just all of a sudden go and forget everything behind me; keep walking until my feet hurt and then keep walking even more. I'd have my chin held high with motivation blinking in my eyes, having that decision of abandonment in my mind.

It does sound aweful, or just plain stupid at least. To just abandon everything and everybody I know and hit the road with nothing but the clothes on my back. But in my mind it sounds wonderful from time to time. Maybe I am crazy... maybe I am ungrateful. Maybe I shouldn't think about it. I don't know...

So my paintings are now on display in the local art gallery... Kind of funny, to be honest. I went to the launch today, and this reporter asked if they could possibly get an interview from me, lol. :P

Well, I don't really have very much to say atm, I've been a bit sick lately and my head isn't very right. I can't focus on one specific thing, so I keep forgetting what I want to write. :P

Anyway, I promised the last two paintings from the collection of 3, and so here they are. :)

I am extremely tired right now, and I just got off a video call with Noobie - we made funny faces for like an hour and then he showed me some maps he made in StarCraft. I also watched him play Minecraft, and I think I am safe to say that he sucks at that game. But it was so hilarious!! xD Gawsh, sry Noobie, I just thought it was so funny! xD

I don't know why I'm blogging right now, I guess I just felt the need to talk a bit. Nothing serious, no sad feelings hanging above my head. Just a bit of excitement I guess. :P
Can't wait for July! Then the real fun is going to happen, hehe!! I know it's still a while away, and I still have soooo much to do until then, but it's something to look forward to. :)

Lalala... I guess random talk about recent happenings isn't so odd right now. :P So I'll just start with w/e floats through my brain. :P
Today I had a major test, but I was so completely bored... I started daydreaming through half of it, and it took me about 10 minutes to realize and snap out of it!
Now, of course, I'm curious how badly I'll fail that test, lol.

Also, Monday is the day when my paintings will be shown in the local art gallery alongside with the rest of my class. I'm curious how things will go, to be honest. My dad still has to help me make the frames for the remaining 2 paintings from the collection (I uploaded the finished one a few days ago in a recent post).
I'll try to make pictures of them soon, once they're finished, so I can show you guys. :)

So this is the second painting from the Man and Nature collection. It's a silly collection of 3 paintings I had to do for my art exam.
To be honest, I just want to get this whole art exam over with, lol.
My friend helped me a bit with this one, cause I was inspirationally stuck. She did the yellow part of the skirt and came up with the idea to put the red paper in the "w/e-you-call-it" that the character is holding.
The format is 50/70 cm and I used water colours and acryl for the colouring. Those little balls you see sticking on the skirt and next to her shoe are made from newspaper. I'm amazed they stuck to the painting, to be honest, lol. Although, I did use, like, a ton of liquid glue, lol. :P
I'm still working on the first and second painting. Gotta finish them by Monday...

I just don't get it... My sister is always mad at me because I refuse to cook and refuse to eat a bunch of things I don't like when I don't have to.
I hate cooking! I suck at it, everytime I tried it it ended in disaster...

She's probably right, the doctor said that I have to eat this and that then and like so. But I am not going to make my entire day about thinking about what I am going to eat next! Leave alone cook it all for myself. It's just ridiculous... I am not a food person who loves being in the kitchen and providing tasty meals for their loved ones. Not a chance, I am not that kinda person. My cooking skills suck!

So now my sister is off to the store to buy food, even though we have stuff left in the fridge that I am allowed to eat, so she can make dinner. I told her not to, that it's not necesarry, but I can't talk her out of it. I don't get why it's such a big deal anyway. As long as I don't eat the stuff I'm not allowed to eat I'm fine. As long as I keep losing weight I'm fine. That's the whole point of the diet, right? To lose weight...

I sound stupid, I can hear it myself. But even though I have a dozen arguments against my own words right now, I can't change the way I think about it, can't convince myself that I'm wrong even though I know I am. I guess that's stubborn me again...

I'll go off and do the dishes now, at least there will be some use to who I am. Screw the rest of my identity.